My first semester of college was about to start. I had all of my tuition covered through grants and student loans. I had a backpack. I had a car for the drive. A full tank of gas. And a little bit of money for lunch. But I lacked one really important thing…books.
I owed $175 for books, of which I had about four dollars. It was Saturday evening. School started on Monday. What was I going to do?
Thankfully, I had been watching a good amount of health and wealth teachers that taught me to plant my seeds of faith. If I would put God to the test then he would certainly bless me. I only needed to believe.
I was very new and immature in the faith. I wasn’t even very good at the whole health, wealth, and prosperity thing. So I wondered what would happen if I took my four bucks, used some faith, and tried turning that into $175 bucks.
I got all prayed up, and nervously ventured to the local gas station. “Four lottery tickets please,” I confidently told the cashier. She pulled off the four tickets and I took them to my car, knowing in faith that I would be back in a few minutes to claim my jackpot.
First ticket. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch…nothing.
Oh, well. God is testing my faith. Ticket two. Scratch. Scratch. Scratch…still nothing.
Third ticket. This time I scratch off the winning amount side first. There are sweet prizes to be had. Surely, this is the winning ticket. My scratching routine reveals the same as the first three…a big fat nothing.
Last ticket. I nervously scratch it off, feeling a bit like a fool. I didn’t really feel like the Lord let me down. I just figured (rightly) that I was being an idiot. This one, though, was a winner. Free Ticket.
That God sure is a trickster. He really ran me through the ringer. So, I jaunted back into the store and claimed my ticket. Which I knew would give me a huge blessing once I unveiled it’s tender mercies. I couldn’t wait to get it back to the car. I scratched it off at the register. And to my shock it revealed that I had won…
NOTHING. A big fat zero. Now I had no money even to eat lunch.
The next morning I went to church, still smarting from my painful demise the night before. I sat towards the middle of our small church singing worship songs. I still had no idea how I was going to get books. Or what I would eat the next day. I figured that I would have to get by until my next paycheck when I could buy books.
I don’t remember the song that we were singing, but my worship was interrupted by a somewhat shy man that tapped me on the shoulder. With tears in his eyes he informed me that the Lord had moved in his heart to give me a check.
I thought maybe it would be $50 bucks. Maybe that’ll buy me food for the week. I looked down and noticed a two and a zero. “Twenty bucks”, I thought. Then I glanced again. It was $200. This would pay for my books and my lunch.
I wept.
You see I didn’t put one dime in the offering plate that morning. I couldn’t. I had blown it on lottery tickets. I was “trusting” God but in a way strikingly similar to the Israelites of old. It was as if I went to Assyria and Egypt to play the role of God’s little helpers. I had betrayed the Lord.
But I still had a $200 check in my hands and a lesson that I will never forget. Yahweh is faithful to His people. Not because I was faithful, but just because He is. I haven’t bought a lottery ticket since that day. I don’t need it. My God supplies all my needs. The Lord will provide.
Amen. This post has been a wonderful encouragement. The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord!
ReplyDeleteGreat post!
ReplyDeleteNot because I was faithful but just because HE is.
ReplyDeleteWonderful!! Thank you for sharing.
The lottery is a tax on the mathematically illiterate. Ask a mathematician to show you the expected value of a lottery ticket near you. We just had a $550 million jackpot in our region, but it's still an expected loss for anyone who plays.
ReplyDeleteI never cease to be amazed at the goodness of God. This is a great example of how God provides for us, whether we are 'worthy' or not. I find that these moments of God's definite provision form the backdrop for my reliance upon God as much as the pages of the Bible.
ReplyDeleteI need $10,000 to send my daughter to college next semester and I don't have it. Are you saying that I should go buy 4 lottery tickets for the Lord? I find this whole concept to be crazy. It all sounds like the health and wealth teachers are still in your theology.
ReplyDeleteFor every story where money suddenly shows up there are 10 stories of people who learn to live without. Does God not love those people?
Did you finish the article?
DeleteI'm obviously NOT condoning you buying 4 lottery tickets. Nor do I even come close to a health and wealth gospel. This is something that really happened to me when the Lord taught me that He provides and that He is faithful. He always supplies our needs.
I agree with your last statement. There is no guarantee that the Lord will provide $10,000 for your daughters college. But that doesn't mean that the Lord doesn't provide everything we need. I have had numerous times where I have had to live without.